Pivoting

It's getting close. Very close.

Pivot time I mean.  I don't know if you experience this phenomena, but I have a few times.  It's a feeling that starts in your soul and reaches into your daily life, into your gut, that things need to change.  And you do change, and you feel better.  For me, it's comparable to the feeling you get when you know you're going to throw up, and intellectually you understand that's what's needed. While the act is distasteful you do welcome it.  You feel better when it finally happens, relieved even though the experience is less than enjoyable at the time.

When I reach the conclusion that things could be better if change occurred and I fight it -  no change happens.  In me, if I suppress that for a while, it'll eventually emerge as the need to pivot.  Pivot to me means an entire life experience based conclusion that I've waffled long enough over a choice, and it's really time to act.

I notice anecdotally that pivots develop in my own life during extended down time.  Perhaps like fine wine maturing, these determinations must develop their own bouquet   Or perhaps I'm dressing up procrastination as something fancy. Whatever.

But it's close now, and I feel it.