Saturday, June 4, 2011

It's the Single Best Thing I've ever Done

I came out with this statement, quite without thinking yesterday. I wasn't even really something that needed to be pondered for me, seemed like something I just knew. I've been thinking about that automatic response since saying it, and have analyzed 'how I really think about it'...but my conclusion remains the same.

If I step aside from my emotional bias for a moment, it's an interesting thing to have said out of the blue. Even more interesting is the fact I wouldn't have consciously acknowledged this, had I not been asked the question. It started me wondering what else I feel this way about, and what that says about where we hold those things most dear to us.

Clearly you can see the lead up to the question I'd pose to you - but if you don't mind for a moment, this isn't about you, it's about me.

When asked the question that prompted this response, a number of options did pop through my head - my jobs, relationships, accomplishments and the usual stuff. I did a micro-second validation of the answer that I instinctively knew to be right, but it really did only take the time it takes to blink. And while I answered the question with the answer above, I did hear another's perspective of the conversation repeated back afterward, and the 'add-on' joke that I also offered got the spotlight - not my statement above, which raised more interesting thoughts about how some of the most important things we say aren't heard.

I believe it's important though that I specifically understand the ramifications of what I said, as it does represent something hugely intimate and personal to me. Other people we all have to admit to ourselves, tend not to care so much about some of the things we hold dear. (That's not a criticism, just a fact of life)

So, here I was, sitting in the empty room that is my brain, and wondering about all this, and adding to it by considering how important it was that this thought is formalized and communicated. I've clearly decided (via the act of publishing into the ether) that it is important. And if you'll forgive some self-indulgence, I'm writing this for me today, not you. You see I want to mark this spot, and celebrate what I felt as I rather like the whole idea and suffer as we all do from some pride-sin. (you can get the man out of the church, but it's harder to get the church out of the man).

The question I was asked for those of you who've indulged me and read this far..?

What did I think of being a Dad, posed by my daughter.

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